I asked my Sir if he would take me under his consideration a few weeks ago. Maybe that isn’t how this is supposed to go… I don’t even know. I just know I want to be his, and that is how to start. He said yes. He said he was glad to be my Sir.
But because my D/s relationships previous to him have been very lacking in protocols, I found myself unsure even after this as to where I stand with him.
I started wondering if Sir saying he would train me as a slave meant just in general or to be his slave. I assumed the latter, but could I be wrong?
Today I finally worked up the courage to ask him if this meant that he was not seeing anyone else. I had assumed he was not, but knew in my heart that assuming was not a smart way to navigate any relationship. D/s or vanilla.
Thankfully the answer was that he is seeing only me. I told him I was really pleased and honored to know that. The fact of the matter is that I am honored. That Sir sees something in me, as I do in him.
So, my question to myself….. Is it so hard to see my own value? To not let self doubt creep into my daily thoughts and chip away at the happiness I feel?